=心里话=

今天，
fish-fish 跟我聊了一些心里话。
她说，
我不是开朗的人，
很喜欢想东西。
每次都以个人静静，
然后都不知我在想些什么。。。
恩，
我是静，
可是我并不想想东西。。。
我不是故意要像一个东西，
只是，
那个问题一次又一次的飘进我脑海里。。。。
讲真的，
我真得很辛苦。。。
还有，
她讲我，
我很喜欢讲些劝告，
而那些劝告，
都对每个人都很有用。
恩。
还有讲我思想蛮成熟。
这我知道。
过后，
她就一直说很难开口跟我讲。
有一句，
她讲得很小声，
可是我还是听到。
虽然不是很清楚。
她讲，
什么好朋友的。
我看应该是讲 “我们是好朋友吗”
我就哈？？回答她，
她说没什么。
过后，
就难言说，
露宜，
“下次有什么烦恼有什么心事跟我讲，
我帮你。”
我听得，
惊了！！！
这是我的口头谈！
怎么会出自她的口？？
怎么可能！
我从来都没有对她说过这句话！
讲真的，
跟我说过这句话的人，
少之又少。。。
过后，
她就讲我的弱点。
她讲我：
你呀，
就只是会关心别人，
帮助别人。
你自己叻？
每次遇到什么伤心的事，
就一个人静静！
一个人躲在那里。
haix....
你认为，
我说出来，
有人会来安慰我吗？
有用吗？？
我静静，
没出声。
一直聆听她对我说心里话。
我一直很想知道，
我在他们心目中，
到底是个怎样的人。
问了那么多人，
等了那么久，
终于有一个人回答我了。。。
而且是心里话。。。
她讲的，
全部都是真的。。。
我当时真得很想哭。。。
很想痛哭一次。。。
当她在讲，
我越听越想哭。。。
真的，
没骗你们。
我其实有哭，
你们不会有发觉我在哭而已。。。
她。。。
应该我信任吗？
我应该信任她吗？
她值得信任吗？？
我不知道。。。。
讲真的，
也曾经去相信她。。。
可是，
（我不会讲。。。）
现在讲起来，
我还真的会哭出来呢！
她又问我，
我和雅强&汶淇怎样？？
我笑笑，
没回答。。。
我也想知道，
我们到底怎样。。。
我们很久没联络了。。。
对方发生了什么事，
我真的一点也不知道。
也没有一个来找我。。。
算了吧！
我应该像fish说的，
我要多笑，
要开朗点，
别乱想~
加油吧！
我应该试试去改变下自己~


Change abit,
can make the whole world 2be colourful......

=星期四&五=

======================星期四======================
星期四那天，
我心情慢慢变好了~
虽然我不是很喜欢“她”了，
也一直隐藏着自己的~
所以，
“她”不会发现到什么的~
最近，
“她”也怪怪的~
一直跟我很亲密~@.@
>.
时不时把身体靠向我！！！
真是感觉不自在！
我男朋友都还没过将呢！
她把我当成什么？？
只要她不把我当作她男朋友就好了~
今天下课，
我没下食堂~
跟sylvia 他们~
也不是没下啦~
下一下就上楼了~
我当时买了包twitties~
then~
下课吃~
给很多人看见了！！！
T.T
我是食物阿~
Adam 拿了一点来吃，
对我说什么有东西都不给我吃~
还用那食物来指指我~ T.T
你们知不知道，
我早餐没吃，
午餐也没得吃啊~T.T
可怜的我啊~
食物还被你们抢了呢!
不过还好~
山洞请吃~
我刚好没水了~
叫他买灌水给我~
haix....
去到sylvia 那里，
我又给uncle lee 弄了~
他hor~
我越来越觉得他娘~！
过后又一直弄我头发！
（我当时帮起我那短短的头发）
他还算我头上有多少个夹呢！T.T
在班上，
又被honey 讲我是alien！！
什么啦！
头发断罢了~
还一直叫我：lulu~ lulu~ lulu~lulu~
bla bla bla~~
>.


======================星期五================
今天，
马来人有哪些东西，
我们华人& 印度人就在班咯~
到四点~
A,B,D,E都要去A 班~
我，fish, sylvia ,lamlam ,uncle lee,cynthia & amanda
在我班（E班）
then,
miss anni 要来了！
我们全部慌了！
结果有人拿起椅子,
假装拿椅子~
其实是骗老师的~
then,
老师看着我们把椅子搬去A班咯~
原来她就是我们的代课老师！！！
过后，
kalai就告诉老师说，
uncle lee & amanda 不是这班的，
老师就问咯，
who is Amanda?
过后Amanda 回答说，
Amanda die aready
老说就说，
that girl say that word's,cum infront.
then,
amanda 就骂了粗口，
和uncle lee 一起回班咯~
过后不久，
他们又跑回来了！！
这次他们遇见sifatmalau!!!
cham jor!
Amanda 立刻蹲在地下，
假装找东西，
then uncle lee 就和honey 他们坐在一起。
怎知道，
老师人得出他！
OMG!!
then 他走出课室咯~
他声骂道：
sifatmalau XXXXXXXXXX
我从来没有见过他将生气的~
我当场傻眼了~
虽然没看见他样子，
可是从他的声音听起来，
是很恐怖的~
haix....
Amanda 就坐在我旁边，假装读书咯~
老师人不得她的背影，
所以就走了~
好险哦~

>乱<

很乱阿~
最近~
美琦讲要帮我~
她说，
有人欺负我跟她讲，
她帮我出头~
她跟我说，
如果“她”在欺负我，
她就会采取行动了~
>.
怎么办？？？
我很乱叻~
她保护我，
我很感激也很开心。
可是我现在的心情很不安心叻~
haix....
算了吧，
将就将吧！

=can't smile=

this few days i also can't smile。。。
this is the 7th i can't smile....
coz no mood....
haix.....
monday,
my chinese class teacher didn't cum.....
n .....
many things happen....
SHE hav talk le sum word hurt me....
haix.....
so sad.....
why she wan like this？？？
hurt me let u feel veli happy izit???
har??
2day at skul,
i also no mood....
go 2 skul,
dun hav smile.....
then saw SHE n tham talk veli happy.
ok , fine! THIS IS NON OF MY BUNISSNESS!!!
this is wat u say de....
this word hurt me so deep...
then....
ben ben 安慰me....
SUDDENLY,
i feel wan cry.....
but i dun hav cry,
coz....
i can't cry!!!!
i must me tahan!
tahan until i can't tahan anymore then i cry....
juz need a hug....
so simple....
n dun say sumthing hurt me....
plz la...
我并不是你们想象中的那么坚强。。。。
i'm juz a girl.....

=nO mOod=

haix....
this few day really got sumthing wrong wif me...
dun hav mood....
yesterday at class i also scold people....
i shouted n scold ,
then whole class stop talking then look at me...
but i dun hav stop scolding....
teacher also look at me...
then....
i also dun care about it,
continue scolding.....
sumthing wrong about me le....
i dun smile,
talk less...
then...
fren call me also lazy reply them....
then....
giv they say me veli cool again....
yea, i am....
then...
i continue my cool then sit quiet...
if u kacau me,
i will BOOM!!
then u kena !
see la~
yesterday math class then my mood good abit oni...
coz...
i like math!
coz...
do math can make me buzy,
then i dun hav time 2 think anything....
haix....
but....
the time go it so fast!
my mood down again...
then...
i scold people again....
haix.....
wat's the matter of me???
i also dunnoe.....
why this few days i dun hav mood???
why???
who make me no mood???
i also dunnoe....
can i noe wat wrong wif me??
who make me no mood??
who noe?
the person noe juz oni me......

sumthing wrong wif me???

this few day,
i feel myself pelik pelik de...
dunnoe why...
juz berasa veli tired,
n no mood~
why leh???
wat happen??
like hav sumthing will begin ...
like got sumthing stuck on my heart....
hav anything happen??
i dunnoe.....
then....
this few day i also berasa i becum abit naughty le....
this few day i got rayau-rayau at skul...
then recess time,
i also dun hav go 2 canteen....
then i wif sylvia,uncle lee, lamlam,amanda, adam n more......
haix....
wat happen 2 me???
did i becum a bad student???
did i change???
i think that so.....
i dun wish i will becum a bad student....
then....
i also dun wan giv people berasa i'm a bad student......
coz....
will make many things happen ......

=pertandingan kawad=

haix...
2day pertandingan kawad o~
i feel dissapoited~
v juz got 3rd prize oni....
v lose 2 KRS & Polis....
so hate myself la~
n now i juz berasa veli tired....
why???
WHY!!!
T.T
the form 1 team(PBSM)~
see le i wan die!!!
our PBSM got 2 team~
team a & b...
i team a....
then....
the team b wan kawad so poor!
all also dunnoe how 2 kawad!!
then say team a de why dun campur dengan mereka wor~!
go die la!
campur dengan team b???
v will lose la!
SOPLAK!!
no brain de!!
not v all dun wan campur dengan team b,
is ahli team b's kelakuan veli bad!
difficult 2 teach!
n the teacher also SOPLAK de!
last minute say got pertandingan kawad!!!
n make team a de so tired~!!
v win le also dun hav say wat!!!
then...
i feel veli dissapoited 2 PBSM la....
our senior also last minute cum out n say our pakaian wear wrong!!
why suddenly say???
make v all so kelam kabut!!!
aiyo....
i dun hav things 2 say lar....

2molo pertandingan lol~

haix....
2molo pertandingan kawad lol~
so wish PBSM can win the pertandingan~
hehe~
i think v can win de la~
coz i berasa its 2~ easy~
wakaka~
juz oni wan focus~
then u step the step right then ok le~
so easy~!
2day v all wan play until mati le~
they all play, screm~
but me is laugh until tired~
hehe~
i dun like play until they all~
macam kanak-kanak~
i juz oni sit aside n see they all play then laugh lol~
my kai jie,sylvia ask me why dun play???
i say dun wan
then she say v take photo.
ok.
then ka cha lol.
she say why dun smile??so serious??
i juz say coz i dun wan smile.
that's all.
then she continue 2 play lol~
2day also got happen sumthing....
Adam go away n Sylvia angry....
haix....
why all like this???
all kenot bersama dengan happy de meh???
“幸福只是一瞬间”
this word is correct de....
i so sad when it happen...
now i juz wish 2molo will becum ntg happen ....
like normal...

=Bigband Concert=

Yesterday evening,
I go 2 UM 2 listen BIGBANG concert.
It is a music concert~
When I arrived the hall,
I saw the hall veli big!
Like a dancing hall~
Hehe~
At there so big n cold~
When the music start,
I get shock !!!
Coz the music so JAZZ n like I’m sawing a big concert !!
1st time I saw this type of concert~
This concert got many type of music~
Like Jazz, blues , rock n roll , Cha Cha n more~
I’t so wonderfull!!
^o^
Becoz I 2 short ,
N I sit behide,
I can’t see the people on the stage …..
Hehe…
I so sad~
N my sister also got ask me can saw it anot~
Then I oni smile n say abit~
Nvm, is ok~
Coz I oni listen 2 the music~
Not see the dancer dance~
This concert I feel abit boring coz 2 long~
Acctually a concert like 2 hours is veli enough~
But this concert veli long~
About 2 & half hours!
I sit there also wan sleep le n feel veli exited when It is over~
Tell u all,
When I haven go 2 this concert,
I already wan sleep~
Hehe~
But I like 2 listen 2 the music!
Then I go wif my dad n my second sister lol~
When arrived home,
It’s about 11.20pm ….
I so tired n hungry~
Coz I dun hav eat dinner~
I eat sum thing n go 2 sleep ~
Coz 2 sleepy~

K@w@d~

accually~
i veli like kawad de~
coz i like lol~
hehe~
but...
kawad is so tired~
sumtime i can't tahan under the sun~
coz i 2 weak~
haix.....
so hate myself!
always so weak!
fish-fish always say me...
i wan 2 confuse,
a fren will not say u if u a weak person right??
i think is like this
a fren is a person will always giv u support 2 u when u r weak right?？
but she always say me !
when i heard ,
i veli sad...
how can she like this???
i almost like ben ben,
she always care about me ,
like my mother~
n miko misukie~
she also veli care about me....
when i pratise this kawad ,
i noe sum new fren~
(nickname):
Uncle lee, Adam , Amanda, n more~
accually Adam n Amanda is my primary skul fren ~
hehe~
they all veli funny de lol~
that day v kawad out of the skul~
then they haven eat breakfast~
then go buy lol~
i dun hav but coz i can't eat breakfast~
coz i will vomit~
then my fren Sylvia 引诱me lol~
then she say lulu wan keep fit~
n this word giv uncle lee listen le~T.T
so shame la~
then Uncle lee ask me lol~
'lulu, u wan keep fit ar?'
'er...when keep fit leh~u kenot eat potato........'=.=
hehe...
n Adam leh~
he is veli active n like 2 joke de person~
he is veli funny de lol~
hehe~
always make me laugh~
then Uncle lee leh~
his movement is veli 娘~
haha~
so funny la they all~
n they also so lame~
^o^
so happy i got this type of fren that can make me happy de~
then~
yerterday~
Adam veli quiet...
like Adam not like Adam....
all of us so worried about him!
i heard from my fren ,
Adam 被鬼压。。。
haix...
now July le....
haix...
last time Adam say he oni 32kg~
but when they sit on the basketball's 摇椅，
Adam suddenly quiet n heavy 4++kg le!
OMG~
poor Adam~
希望他不会有什么事情发生吧！

T!r3d o ....

this few day i so tired....
haix....
now always early sleep lol~
also veli late wake up....
haix....
many activities also dun hav go~
kawad also less go ....
then...
all my friend say me 放飞机,
then i quiet lol~
actually i not feeling well....
i pening n always feel veli tired~
haix.....
now my tounge also pain~
haix....
so sad~
i wish i can getting well~

Vampire Knight

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